You dont even

You dont even mine

You dont even care

You dont even ask

You dont even worried

You never think of me, what did i do for today, you just want me to always be there for you everyday eveytime . You dont even want to meet me. What should  i do? Its too late to just say i wont fallin love with you. 

Its too late for everything , ive tried to end this.

For sure, i dont need i dont want the relation but i just want to make what we have done yesterday im not disturbing, im seriously someone that you need most of the time. Why dont you just say "i want you to be always be there" with my pleasure i will say "why not, i will always be there for you" . Because at that time i will caring you always like my bestfriend.

Surely, i just need to say it. Cause what? I feel like im always disturbing for everytime i want to talk to you, i feel who am i? Am i annoying?

This is crazy this is alay and lebay haha, but this is the truth. 

Summer Holiday

Hello happy summer in july ;)

now, me fasting as a moslem must have to :3
can;t wait till eid mubarak comiingggg :3

oke just want to share a lil' bit about a band that inspiring me, and also never make feel bored to listen to the song. the songs is kind of my life hahah!!!

in 2013 "paramore" launching new album "paramore" same like the name of the band :3
and these are the songs

1.	"Fast In My Car"
2.	"Now"
3.	"Grow Up"
4.	"Daydreaming"
5.	"Interlude: Moving On"
6.	"Ain't It Fun"
7.	"Part II"
8.	"Last Hope"
9.	"Still Into You"
10.	"Anklebiters"
11.	"Interlude: Holiday"
12.	"Proof"
13.	"Hate to See Your Heart Break"
14.	"(One of Those) Crazy Girls"
15.	"Interlude: I'm Not Angry Anymore"
16.	"Be Alone"
17.	"Future"

and this is lyric of "still in to you"

I'm into you

"Still Into You"

Can't count the years on one hand
that we've been together
I need the other one to hold you
Make you feel, make you feel better

It's not a walk in the park
to love each other
But when our fingers interlock,
Can't deny, can't deny you're worth it
'Cause after all this time, I'm still into you

I should be over all the butterflies
But I'm into you (I'm into you)
And baby even on our worst nights
I'm into you (I'm into you)

Let 'em wonder how we got this far
'Cause I don't really need to wonder at all
Yeah after all this time I'm still into you

Recount the night that
I first met your mother
And on the drive back to my house
I told you that, I told you that I loved ya

You felt the weight of the world
fall off your shoulder
And to your favorite song
we sang along to the start of forever
And after all this time, I'm still into you

I should be over all the butterflies
But I'm into you (I'm into you)
And baby even on our worst nights
I'm into you (I'm into you)
Let 'em wonder how we got this far
'Cause I don't really need to wonder at all
Yeah after all this time I'm still into you

Some things just, some things just make sense
and one of those is you and I (Hey)
Some things just, some things just make sense
and even after all this time (Hey)

I'm into you, baby not a day goes by
that I'm not into you

I should be over all the butterflies
But I'm into you (I'm into you)
And baby even on our worst nights
I'm into you (I'm into you)
Let 'em wonder how we got this far

'Cause I don't really need to wonder at all
Yeah after all this time
I'm still into you
I'm still into you
I'm still into you

keep tryiiinnggg

keep trying to end this....

you can do it you can do it yayayaya yatttaaa

Westlife - What about now

Shadows fill an empty heart as love is fadingFrom all the things that we are but are not sayingCan we see beyond the scarsAnd make it to the dawn?
Change the colors of the skyAnd open up to the ways you made me feel aliveThe ways I loved you, for all the things that never diedTo make it through the night love will find you
What about now? What about today?What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?What if our love never went away?What if it's lost behind words we could never find?Baby, before it's too late, what about now?
The sun is breaking in your eyes to start a new dayThis broken heart can still survive with a touch of your graceShadows fade into the lightI am by your side where love will find you
What about now? What about today?What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?What if our love never went away?What if it's lost behind words we could never find?Baby, before it's too late, what about now?
Now that we're hereNow that we've come this far, just hold onThere is nothing to fear, for I am right beside youFor all my life, I am yours
What about now? What about today?What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?What if our love never went away?What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
What about now? What about today?What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?What if our love never went away?What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too lateBaby, before it's too lateBaby, before it's too lateWhat about now?

that's what i called AWKWARD MOMENT or maybe THE GREATEST AWKWARD MOMEN EVER!

selamat malam para readers blogger~ malam ini malam jumat x_x

dipagi hari kamis hari ini, gue tugas di bagian 3 tiang bendera dan gue ditengah. dan ini cerita detailnya

kemaren itu kan hari rabu nih, kan diminta tugas buat gladi dulu dibkb , yaah awalnya ngisi barisan di belakang 3 tiang ntuuh. eh , tau tau kak adel malah gak dateng latian, shock abis ternyata fix aku masuk 3 tiang , kebayang gak sih itu harus punya mental gimana mesti siap , latian cuma 2 kali trus itu tali mau diapain pertama kali latian udah yang mau jatoh itu gimana ya bilang nya yang mau jatuh itu , gini posisi tengah megang tali nah pas bendera dibentang kita nahan tu tali dan gak kuat nahan akhirnya miring miring gak penting dan mau jatooohh cetaaar. sumveh baru 2 kali latian itu pun gak yang full , sedih bangeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet

oke besok paginya langsung caw ke bkb buat upacara bendera itu, degdegan setengah mati kaki gemeter baru kali ini serius! tegang
menjelang upacara dimulai , ini serius tegangnya bukan main!!!! sampe sekarang pagi yang mencekam dengan angin sungai musi yang mencekam. UPACARA DIMULAI! tegang "langkah tegap maju jalan" waaaaaaa, lancar sih selama buka formasi 3 tiang maju haaaaaaaah.tegang serius , yang bikin tambah tegang pak eddy didepan tiang dan ada orang tua-__- papa di ditenda makin tegang takut ngecewain kan. teeeeeeeeeeeeeeng hitungan 1..2 nahan bisa sih tapi agak miring dikit, tapi kak eko malah makin narik dan aku ngelakuin hal yang sama dengan latihan kemaren :( :""""( sedih bukan main ngerasa bersalah banget. sediiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiih . udah itu talinya kenapa gak bentuk jangkar -__- kenapa susah sekali! suatu cobaan huhuuuu tapi yang penting bendera naik dengan sempurna , TAPI??? yang bikin ancur gueee gueeee kenapa? kenapa? maluuuuuu malah bikin kecewa semua pasukan :( , tapi alhamdullilah udah minta maaf kalo ngecewain sumpah down down. hari ini pun berakhir di dispora kota palembang *but you dont have to know!* wkwkw :p

trus ada rencana nonton bareng IRON MAN3 belom nonton men!!! gak sempet2 ! sebelum kehabisan pokoknya nonton hooooh!








note: im gone, ijust want to go, i want to move -____- but thankyou for come and fill my life everyday yesterday. i love to see you with her. dont worry about me, i wont cry just because about this :p, we have to live , life must go on bro! :p byeeeeee , still keep in touch wkwk

i have to say

I AM TIRED , just it

 thank you

I love you like a Spoon need a Fork

sendok butuh garpu. kenapa sendok mesti butuh sama garpu?

sendok adalah alat bantu makan bagi manusia , karena sendok nggak mungkin selalu sendirian jadi dibuat garpu sama bahannya kayak sendok tapi cuma beda bentuk.

Ini sama dengan layaknya manusia . manusia untuk dapat bertahan hidup sendirian dan mereka butuh seseorang untuk menemaninya

diakhir tahun ini kita ketemu dan mungkin untuk terakhir kalinya mungkin juga kita suatu hari nanti ketemu , tapi kapan??? apa daya kita jauh 

semua ini berawal dari pertemuan singkat

Nggak ada sepintas pun bakalan gini. aku gak pernah sedikit pun ngira bakalan jatuh sedalem ini

aku nggak pernah ngerasain ini sebelumnya , padahal kita sederhana cuma saling komunikasi dan mulai percakapan . setelah pengalaman kita yang kemaren yang cukup banyak yang bakalan terkenang terus terus menerus yang buat aku kangen dengan kedewasaan buat aku nahan emosi ngasih aku perhatian dan buat aku nggak bisa berbuat apa apa

hahaha mungkin aku memang aneh , padahal yang ngerasain ini cuma aku =D padahal kmrn itu cuma nganggep temen yang biasa aja nggak ada apa apa.


dan sekarang yang terjadi ... yang jauh itu ternyata deket banget. tapi apa?  deket itu gak selalu identik dengan selalu ada dan disamping kita malahan deket itu meski kita tau dia ada tapi gak pernah ketemu? got it

i'm looking for something that wont happen. but even i know it i still looking for it! fvck

setelah aku mikir lagi... yes of course i want to be your the only one to love. tapi buat apa itu jadi kenyataan kalo biki tambah gak nyaman. dan kalo kita akhirin the conversation itu bakalan kangeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen setengah mati karena ini gak bentar, buka 1 atau 2 hari ini udah bebulan-bulan (mikir gak sih udah berbulan2) hha! but just thingking positively mungkin ini emang yg baik, emang gak ada tujuan akhir karena kalo ada tujuan dari tujuan itu pasti ada akhirnya kan? betul? okeeee anggap aja skg lo punya tanggung jawab yg mesti lo lakuin sehari-sehari kalo gak lo kerjain bakalan dapet yg buruk lah... oke sekalian ni :3 ada lagu yang cocok buat skg ini...

dan asal lo tau aja ini sebenernya udah dibuat dari awal januari 2013 kemaren smpe hari ini udah mau masuk april baru di post! dan bisa mikir lah berarti conversation ini berbulan bulan dong ya :$. got it? :p

This Conversation - Mocca

Hey boy did you know?
I lie awake in my dreamy bed
Thinking of ou and those crazy times we’ve had

Sometimes i wonder
Whether you’re a Jekyll or you’re a Hyde
Sometimes you are wise and tell no lies

Oh i can’t tell
Cause you make me feel so loved and confused
This conversation may never happen

Hey girl did you know
I miss you so though it may not show
Thinking of you and those crazy times we’ve had

Me dear i have news to tell you
Your silly jokes did brighten me
You cheered me up when i was down

Oh i can’t tell
Cause you make me feel so loved and confused
This conversation may never happen

never let..........................

I never want this would happen

I never want to end this conversation

I always want the causes my phone vibrating is you

I always want this silly conversation go on 

I hope there will always you in this phone

I hope there's nothing anybody else

berharap itu mudah... ngehadepin kenyataan itu yang bikin sakit sebenernya

...................................................................................................................................................................

I've tried to know " do you love me?"

I've tried to know " am i just a friend ?"

BUT, i got the answer\

" I need you"

" yes you are my friend"

"where are you ? I miss"

you may not say it directly to me but I can see from our LONG conversation.

udah berulang kali , tapi masih belom yang ngerti sengertinya ....

...................................................................................................................................................................

"he doesnt love me :("

"im just his friend"

"oh good, i've already know. I can go now"

BUT, when I've tried, you need me , don't you?

udah aku coba buat ngebuktiin , kalo aku ngelakuin ini responnya bakalan gimana. 

dan udah di coba ternyata masih you still wanted me to wake you up to alert you .

i've ever till now think about you and i but now, even i love you and someday i know you'll ask me do i love you. 

Sure , i love you i need you here beside me,orang yang nyatain cinta itu intinya mau orang yang dia cinta ada disisi dia disebelah dia. but i have hope it would happen. i do really love you, i love when you reply faster and i hate to waiting your reply.